After all the fireworks and festivities last night, I ended up staying up too late. Plus my sleep was interrupted by occasional neighborhood fireworks, and one instance of a neighbor threatening other neighbors with physical harm if they didn't stop with the fireworks already. On top of that, it's just tough starting a week after a three-day weekend. I had all that time to lounge around and enjoy myself, and now I've been working pretty much all day, and it just leaves me tired and busy, and not particularly interested in sex, solo or otherwise.

It's still early, of course, so the plan might change later, but I'll probably be going to bed early, too. Honestly, right before bed is one of my most common times to masturbate. Part of it is the quiet—all the roommates have gone to bed and I finally get the opportunity to do something I wouldn't want them to interrupt. More than that, though, is the fact that I usually fill my days with all kinds of busy, practical matters, and it's only at the end of the night that I start getting creative, or thinking about fun things that I've put off all day. Back in high school, when I had a crush on a girl I could stumble through the day just fine, but as soon as I got in bed I'd agonize for hours over my feelings about her, wondering what to do, how to ask her out, and all kinds of things like that. (I didn't date much back then, as you can see. I was the shy, quiet type, and slightly geeky, and I've since been told that I gave girls the impression I was scared of them, which might not be completely untrue.)

But all of that mental agonizing usually led to physical arousal, and masturbation was my only outlet. Even now, if my girlfriend isn't around I sometimes don't spare nearly enough thought on sex until late in the evening when things slow down. Masturbation right before going to bed is kind of like a bedtime story I can tell myself, as well as a venting and release of the day's built-up tension.

So who knows. It's early yet, and now that I've been thinking about it for the last fifteen minutes, maybe there's a bedtime story in store for me this evening after all.